Connect with Spirit Eps 5

K from Connect with Spirit is an author, clairvoyant, healer and messenger of Spirit. In my latest podcast we discuss what it is like being clairvoyant, what a soulmate is, the importance of meditation, and the messages she receives from Spirit.

What is a Spirit guide? Do we all have them?  What is the difference between an angel, and a Spirit guide? These are just a few questions we hit on in todays podcast with K, from Connect with Spirit. Click below to hear more!




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Our latest podcast with Dr Jami Grich

Last month I had the opportunity to sit down with Dr Jami Grich, a clinical psychologist, who specializes in finding your joy. Join us in our latest podcast as she and I talk about breaking human patterns, acceptance, yoga, meditation and learning to find your joy!

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Podcast 3 - Dr. Suzanne Lie

Did you know that different realities all exist at the same time? Are you aware of your multidimensional self? Join me today as I sit down for a mind blowing interview with Dr. Suzanne Lie from Multidimensions.com, where we discuss ascension, different realities, other galaxies, time and higher consciousness.

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Flourish - stronger than it sounds!

I have always been 'growth' orientated,... bar the fact that I am 5ft zero!  Growth as in personal development, in myself and in others.  But the term 'flourish' was brought to my attention recently and I dismissed it as girly, flowery, and soft...  How wrong was I?  Being pedantic as I am, I looked it up in the dictionary, and to all intents and purposes that is one iceberg of a word!

To Flourish:

• To prosper
• To be successful
• To do or fare well
• To be in one's prime
• To thrive
• To grow well, luxuriantly
• To be in a period of highest productivity, excellence, influence...

I believe we could all use some flourishing in our lives, relationships and passions!

How are you going to flourish today?

Let your Love and Light Shine - It Brightens the World!

Beverley

A love note to yourself

Sometimes I get really frustrated with God. How is it that I can work so hard at something, KNOW what it is I need to do, FEEL like I am doing it.......PRAY, and PRAY and PRAY on it......and retrieve nothing in return?

Then I hear Garth Brooks in my head..”sometimes God’s greatest gifts, are unanswered prayers.” As I struggle to keep my head above water in a most challenging and difficult economy, I find myself asking questions like “is this what God/Spirit wants for me?” Some days I am elated for the simple things that bring me joy. Then I get another bill, or another debt collector, or another one of life's challenges on my doorstep, and I think "God cant possible want this for me!” And off I go into my broken record, starting the pattern of hopelessness again!

How many of you can relate to this story? Despite these many challenges, I see the divine all around me. And if you look, you will too. A dear friend reminded me to ALLOW God’s greatest good into my life. Frustration and constriction never gets you anywhere she screeched! And she is right, Angels are all around us, open yourself up to it, trust and believe. More importantly, PAY ATTENTION. Remember my dear friends, angels come in many forms.......mine came in the form of an HVAC repair man this morning that had to remind me that a smooth sea never makes a skillful sailor. 

Love and light 

Amanda

The counter clockwise manifestation game

In an effort to manifest the material things I desired, in 2007 I built the most beautiful vision board. Chalked full of fancy house interiors, a booming business model, a diamond ring bigger than my head, and to complete the image, a new Maserati. I mean, if we are going to dream big we want to shoot for the stars right?

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SO with high vibration, a stroke of good luck and a little will power I presume that all my wishes will come true, right? OK, not right away. Apparently a week is not enough time. Maybe this takes a couple of weeks.....or maybe a few months?..............then I realized I was now in 2008 and I still didn't have a red Maserati in the driveway. Shoot. Did I want red? Maybe I asked for blue, and now I have diluted everything by thinking it was red. Dammit. Do I have to start over? OK, blue it is. I will focus on blue, a booming business and a fancy house. I don't really need the diamonds.

Now it is the fall of 2008, still no car, I have lost interest in the house, and I cannot fit anything into the Maserati, and to be honest I hate blue! But the booming business I will take!.......BOOM! Economy crashes, housing market plummets and the retail market logs a record breaking fall since the 80's. But that is OK. my vibration is high, I don't need a house, or a car and a booming business is easy........

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In walks one difficult client after another. Absolutely no sales, profits below 15%, cutting staff and the cherry on top...overhead out the wazoo! Screw the vision board, I need an effing miracle and a baby Jesus!

The plummet in the economy took a brash affect on me internally. I held on to my beliefs that I could rise above it, but I still had the internal anarchy to battle of self conflict. A constant yes-no-yes-no mentality of, "I can do this....holy crap how am I going to do this?!!"

My answer? Meditation. And this took awhile to get it right. Full of anxiety, frustration and anger I continually went into my space with all the wrong emotions. And the worst thing? I fell into desperation and begging. Not exactly the emotional state you should be in, when the space is meant for manifestation of all things good.

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I now feel like I have a handle on my meditation practices, and chakra healing work. But it took me an entire year just to get to the place where I could center myself long enough to focus on more than just what is. Even though I kept TRYING to focus on future possibilities I kept getting hung up on the everyday "what is" of my life. Three years to be exact. Three years at the bottom of the well climbing upwards, but getting caught on the daily hang-ups of life, throwing me back to the bottom of the well.

The goal of meditation and energy work is to get you to a place of absolute belief that everything that is being thrown at you, on your way out of the well, is merely static. No you shouldn't ignore it, but simply acknowledge it and continue climbing. My mistake was that every time that static would hit me, I would let go of the rope and fall.....and I would have to start all over again.

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The point is, hang on. Believe, trust, and know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. ( a beautiful light that includes a maserati!) And the closer you get to it, the more static (obstacles) you will face. It is the universes way of testing you. Little things to see if you are ready. Letting go of that rope is proof that I wasn't ready, because I did not believe. In order to manifest you have to believe in yourself, trust that it is coming and know that you deserve it. Otherwise, you are just getting caught up in the counter clockwise manifestion game, and having a go at a good game of tug-of-war, that you'll never win!

podcast-A journey with universal laws

Today join me, Amanda, on my own journey on things like meditation, positive affirmations, laws of the universe, and spiritual healing. Here I discuss my exploration with the universe from unaware college student, to self enlightened 30 something.

Still on my own road trying to find my way, this podcast shares some of my own ups and downs, and focuses on the importance that positive thoughts and actions possess. Learn lessons on things that can work for you, and things to avoid, and see your own experiences through mine!

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Is Negative energy more powerful than positve energy?

I have convinced myself that I have better manifesting power when I am in the worst negative state. Now I am not manifesting things that I desire, oh nooooo. In fact I tend to manifest more of what I don't want. So why is it easier for me to attract what I don't want and less of what I do?

 I know what I need to focus on. I know about the power of attraction, and I am fully aware of the idea to focus on what could be rather than what is. So why is it that I feel that one day of shear negativity manifests more into my life, than one day of absolute positivity? Albeit I have a feeling that I tend to be harder on myself than I should be, but do find it much easier to be frustrated and negative for reasons I will never be able to explain. Maybe a lifelong pattern? Possibly a default button on hyper drive? But it begs the question, are we as humans better at manifesting more negative circumstances than positive ones for the mere fact that it's easier? Is negativity more powerful than positivity simply because as a society we are told our entire lives what we can't do rather than what we can? Or do all of us default to a pessimistic nature because at our core we feel we don't deserve it and it is easier for us to have self sabotaging behavior as an excuse?


Today, let's affirm that it is going to be a great day. Today we will be safe, pleasant and abundant, and we will be surrounded by good, kind, happy individuals. And just for good measure, let's throw in that we posess the winning lottery numbers too.............

Love and MUCH abundance
amanda

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Meditation-The answer to life's obstacles

I came across this great blog post by Smoke Gets in your (third) eye last week and wanted to share it. Her writing technique is fluid and really takes you on a great ride about the way we live life, and how to handle life's ups and downs through meditation.



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The universe and our creative power

I think one of the most disappointing factors about myself is my inability to stay on track with the things I want. I started doing Chakra healing through a wonderful woman named Carol Tuttle, about four weeks ago. Now I am not upset that I haven't stuck with it consistently....as I proclaimed that I would. (Every day for at least 30 minutes) I am upset with the fact that I know how the universe works, aware of the law of attraction, healing energies.... and yet I still sabotage my lauguage and actions with what is.


Each day with me is like a drug induced, chaotic self-war of internal anarchy. One day I am confident that I can conquer every wish and crazy demand and the next I proclaim my stake to inferior beliefs and destructive habitual patterns. At times I break down and plead to my guides to save me, and other moments I confess my absolute elation of gratitude. A constant tug-of-war of highs and lows that I like to refer to as my self ruled government. ( an organized democracy it is not!)

I truly feel sorry for the guide that was assigned to look after my soul. She must shake her head and throw her hands to the heavens continually for having to deal with me.

The past couple of days have been extremely hard for me. My bills are piling up, creditors are calling me and the harder I profess my stake to riches, the more desperate I become......and oh yes.....yes, my dear audience I have been here before. In fact this very time last year I sat on that meditation pillow and begged the heavens to save me. Throwing my hands in the air I told them I could not do it anymore and I give up.....oh how many times I have been here!!!


So how is it that knowing in every fiber of my body that I need to focus on abundance rather than lack to get what I need....but I cannot seem to get past this state of disappointment and desperation?? Like a mix tape forever looping in my head, all I can hear is "You have made zero progress in an entire year"......"I am so broke"...."How will I ever pay these bills"....why can I not manifest? Gee, probably because my DESPERATE plea for money, sends to the universe more DESPERATION for money. But I still can't make it stop.

In absolute tears this morning I pleaded to the heavens to help. Please oh please make this desperation stop. Please oh please help me out of this horrible 80's mix tape.....and then it happened.


Pissed off, saddend, desperate, frustrated, disappointed and effing angry, I tried very hard to lift myself out of this all too familiar self pity. But thank God for those guides that have to look after us. No matter what they never give up on us, and they never fail us, no matter how ridiculous we behave, and how much we annoy them! Today they sent a vendor into my office and he handed me a much needed booklet. He said "God told me to give this to you."

As I flipped open the booklet I saw:

"I tell my people they can have what they say, but they are saying what they have......Too many people use the words of their mouth to hold themselves in bondage. But speak from the heart, and it will produce liberty..."


Thank-you my angels for looking after me. Thank-you for not giving up on me, and despite my constant loop tape of what is, I will continue trying to manifest what can be.....

Love and light Amanda

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The journey to enlightenment

One of my favorite quotes from the book Eat, Pray, Love is: "I am not asking for life to be easy, I am just asking for it to not be so hard!" Boy, did I resonate with that! The past couple of years have been challenging to say the least. However, in light of my cynical opinion on this journey to enlightenment there were valuable lessons learned.

During my trek through the emotional roller coaster I like to call lack, anger, frustration, and every negative thought imaginable, I was feverishly meditating and focusing on what I thought I wanted. I devoted an old scrap book to magazine clippings which I deemed my vision board of desires. I chanted mantras, lit incense, focused on the things I desired and pretended as if they had happened. I went as far as begging....yup things got pretty low, and I still was unable to manifest. Why did "that" person do all the same things as me, and get entirely different results.....BETTER more positive results? Why was "that" persons dreams coming true and I wasn't even able to manifest a sandwich, let alone a car!?

I started this roller coaster of emotional pandemonium five years ago. At that point in my life things were pretty good. I was making a damn good living working out of my house, I was considerably happy but meditation was merely a shallow exploration for more material things....that I did not need. But in late 2007 early 2008 a massive shift started to occur in my life. Everything started to go wrong. Clients were unruly and difficult, money was scarce and I unwittingly decided that if I expanded my company things would magically get better......but they didn't.
As I entered into 2009, my husband was out of work, all of my jobs had dried up or went away due to the economy and all the money that I had worked hard for (but easily acquired) was gone. To make matters worse I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer in March, and the family pet of 12 years was diagnosed with diabetes. I swear to holy heaven every time I thought it couldn't get worse...it did!

Things continued to spiral out of control. Around every corner was another catastrophe or another fire to put out. I just couldn't get a break. My life was falling apart and I needed the salvation of meditation more than ever before, but it fell on deaf ears. I was nothing more than a shell on auto pilot, I moved from one event to another in survival mode and I was angry and pissed off that the universe would not help me.......I felt that I was doing everything right. Focusing, meditating, visualizing and in return I got zero results.

Fast forward to now. It has been one hell of a journey. And I am no where near being done. I am still cleaning up the aftermath of what truly feels like going to hell and back, but for the first time in three years, I actually feel that change is occurring for the better. I finally feel like I am crawling out of the hole. Albeit slow, I can honestly say that I finally understand the purpose of meditation and going into it with loving intention. In the past I was going into my meditation space angry, frustrated, and pissed off which made me associate that space with those feelings subconsciously, every time I entered! And those feelings would continue while I tried to silence my mind because I felt that way.....I had no idea the fatal results of my thoughts, and feelings. I had no idea that wanting abundance on one hand and being frustrated on the other was confusing my chaotic energy into disorganized mayhem. How on earth can the universe understand such gibberish?

While some may shy away from the act of meditating, there are many forms and practices that can benefit us all. Meditation should be approached with intention and love. It is about silencing your mind and honoring the ritual. Even if you only slice out seven minutes of your day to do it, you will feel transformed. Try to do it in the same place ever day. It programs your mind and helps you get calm very quickly when in that sacred space. Think loving thoughts, focus on your feet, legs, thighs and continue to work up your body. Focus on your breath and count. What ever you have to do to shut down for a moment.

Meditation helps ground you. It slows you down, and you think better. You make better decisions and it really helps put things in perspective. I meditate everyday. The ritual alone puts me in a quiet space where I can reflect on things that are important to me. It has helped me get away from anger, and desperation and replaced it with love, wholeness, and trust. Although it truly was a long road trip to wholeness, the most important thing is I did not give up. Try it, honor it, and believe in the power of creation within you.

Love and Light
Amanda



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New age thinking vs Western Culture

I had the wonderful opportunity to attend one of Bill Plotkins Soucraft intensives in early March. Having never done anything like this I wasn't entirley sure what I had gotten myself into. Open-minded, and ready to explore, I dove into the idea of heading out into nature to talk to trees.

For five glorious days I trekked through the woods (in the middle of no where) to connect with the divine. Not only was I in the middle of no where, I was camping with 12 strangers I had never met. Strangley enough, despite all the signs to be alarmed or rather programmed to fear such unknown circumstances, never in my life had I felt more connected, and safe. These were my people. 

For five days my heart poured open. So much sadness and grief held within me for so long and for the first time in my life I felt accepted, and welcomed. By the end of the trip I was further saddened to leave my family. I truly dreaded going home.

The experience left a very strong impact on my life. It also opened me up to many new modalities and practices such as regular meditation, and chakra healing. All of which I had done for many years of my life, but never with so much conviction and purpose. Never had it connected to the root of who I was, or had such a deep meaning, until that trip. It was as if I had been unzipped and a new light of energy had been injected through me.

So why is it that an experience such as this can leave such a strong impact on ones life, completley change it for the better, and yet still fall on deaf ears for so many? This is the question that really brought Bev and I together. We desperately wanted to share in our amazing transitions, but no one we knew wanted to take part in such "woo-woo" thinking. 

Our ancestors practiced special ceremonies regularly and followed daily rituals to honor and bless nature and the unseen gods. So when and where did our rancid western culture get so lost? Perhaps somewhere between the intersection of My super sweet 16 and Jersey Shore fame? Or was it as simple as the idea that a two income family suddenly made life a little easier until it became a game of keeping up with the neighbors? I think the death of a reality stars husband is proof positive that perception is certainly not reality, and it's time for us to put our feet back on the ground.

Amanda

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